"I'm definitely learning that people walk into our lives when the time is right... but they also exit when they're supposed to. It's a hard concept to grasp. And one I've fought with for years and years." ~ Mel's very own philosophy
I guess it is time for me to stop fighting the fact that not everyone will always be there for me and I have to accept that I have to deal with some situations on my own. I cannot always count on the people in my circle to help me heal when life knocks my feet out for underneath me or punches me in the gut. I hate feeling alone and left to pick up my own pieces. I know I have plenty of wonderful people that I can turn to, but there are times that they will not be able to piece me back together.
I have caused so much drama in my life over the past couple of weeks. My head and my heart are still reeling from the whirlwind of bad choices that I have made. And now, I find out that the man that I let into my life was a complete and utter jackass that knew exactly what he was doing by trying to control every move I was making. In the time that I allowed him to call the shots, I started to see the people I love and care for begin to shut me out because I thought I was doing what was right by turning my back on them. Boy was I wrong for that move.
Now, three months later, I have moved on from that moment in my life, although I am still dealing with the consequences of my actions. I have not spoken to that said person in over two and a half months, and I do not plan on speaking to him ever again. There are some people that just have toxic personalities; I lived with one before and will not again allow one to be a large part of my life.
I feel that I have found the one person in life that truly gets me and understands what I'm working through in my life. She is absolutely amazing in so many ways that I almost cannot believe that she loves me for who I am. Knowing that she, too, has dealt with rough parts in her life, I feel more comfortable with sharing my deepest secrets and thoughts with her.
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Another post that was started over a year ago. Dealing with how complicated and unruly one relationship was beginning to make a deeply romantically charged one, having to cut ties sometimes is the only way to save one's own sanity and the love of a lifetime.
I appreciate the time that I did have with him and the changes that I made in that time. I will not sacrifice the love and connection that I have for the woman that I have beside me.
* ♥ ˚ ˚✰˚ ˛★* 。 ღ˛°
I guess it is time for me to stop fighting the fact that not everyone will always be there for me and I have to accept that I have to deal with some situations on my own. I cannot always count on the people in my circle to help me heal when life knocks my feet out for underneath me or punches me in the gut. I hate feeling alone and left to pick up my own pieces. I know I have plenty of wonderful people that I can turn to, but there are times that they will not be able to piece me back together.
I have caused so much drama in my life over the past couple of weeks. My head and my heart are still reeling from the whirlwind of bad choices that I have made. And now, I find out that the man that I let into my life was a complete and utter jackass that knew exactly what he was doing by trying to control every move I was making. In the time that I allowed him to call the shots, I started to see the people I love and care for begin to shut me out because I thought I was doing what was right by turning my back on them. Boy was I wrong for that move.
Now, three months later, I have moved on from that moment in my life, although I am still dealing with the consequences of my actions. I have not spoken to that said person in over two and a half months, and I do not plan on speaking to him ever again. There are some people that just have toxic personalities; I lived with one before and will not again allow one to be a large part of my life.
I feel that I have found the one person in life that truly gets me and understands what I'm working through in my life. She is absolutely amazing in so many ways that I almost cannot believe that she loves me for who I am. Knowing that she, too, has dealt with rough parts in her life, I feel more comfortable with sharing my deepest secrets and thoughts with her.
______
Another post that was started over a year ago. Dealing with how complicated and unruly one relationship was beginning to make a deeply romantically charged one, having to cut ties sometimes is the only way to save one's own sanity and the love of a lifetime.
I appreciate the time that I did have with him and the changes that I made in that time. I will not sacrifice the love and connection that I have for the woman that I have beside me.
Closing Thoughts: Letting go & moving on is good. Plain and simple.
* ♥ ˚ ˚✰˚ ˛★* 。 ღ˛°
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