"Life is meant to be an adventure. Finding someone to share it with... can be a trip! The most important part... not holding back & having no regrets! Enjoy your adventure!!" -M.S.N. (September 10th, 2011)
I have finally started to accept that the best things in life, happen when you are not expecting them. I was starting to doubt life and the goodness of God because everything in my life was completely crashing down and I had no control over any of it at the time. It was in the time frame of about two weeks that my life went into a terrible tailspin and I just wanted out, not having a clue about how to fix any of it. Knowing how badly I was feeling and finally acknowledging that fact that I had made some pretty amazingly wrong choices, I started to fall apart. I was no longer the positive, peppy, and even bubbly girl that everyone around me knew. I was hating myself and my entire life! I wanted all of the bad to go away and not bother to be around because I felt like the biggest let-down and failure ever. Then during the tail end of these two weeks, that I started to communicate with some absolutely positive minded people.
While getting to know these people better and during the long conversations that we have had, I am learning more about who I am. I know I have great friends that will be there for me to vent to, discuss life with, and cry to but being able to look at life through someone else's eyes, is something that I have not been able to do in a long time. I am understanding that each and every person in the life had their own demons to deal with and just because I felt as though my life was out of my control, it was just the circumstances that were out of my control. I needed a "jump start" to get myself to focus on what I could change and start there.
In the past few days, positive outcomes have started to show themselves to me. I am excited about a job opportunity that has presented itself to me and am currently crossing my fingers, along with many of my closest friends are also. I have a more positive outlook on my life and I do not feel as lost anymore. Being able to overcome such deep feelings of loneliness, rejection, anger, etc. has put a smile on my face that has not left in days.
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Closing Thought: Life is a work in progress. Plain & simple.
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